Dayenu! Do I ask for more when less would be sufficient!

There comes a time in a person’s life when we ask, “Have I taken on too much?"  There comes a time when we may even ask, “Why, Father, do you want me to do this?” I have not questioned YHVH with a “why” or “how come” statement from the moment He permitted me to open my eyes and see just what it is I am here to do. I do not and will not question Him… But let me tell you, I question me a lot!

There are times when I ask myself “what in the world were you thinking Frankie Bee to even hint that you could do this or do that?” Why is it that I can’t keep my mouth shut? The answer to these questions was given to me this week from sources I would never have imagined even knew of my dismay. And the sources are not even aware, as far as I know, just how much they have helped me. The answers came without me asking.. The answers came because I “just happened to be there” praying to be away from “there” and about my Father’s business. Maybe the answers came because my Father was about His own business.

Don’t misunderstand. I was not and do not pretend that I can do the Father’s job. I go about my Father’s business because I work for the Father. He’s the boss. And so when I hear comments like, “I just got so caught up with all the rules and laws, I LOST INTEREST!”… AND QUESTIONS LIKE “How can anyone say they believe in the Bible and not love Jesus?’ And the same person defends the pagan practices? How can the person with that question believe with heart, mind, body and soul in the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob and still not see or understand that we are to do what He says. It reeks havoc with me! Then I find myself complaining that a person I called upon to complete a task, of which he told me call whenever you are ready, does not respond for two days. I make a decision to find someone else whom I can depend on. Minutes later the phone rings and I'm told by this "non-dependable" person that I just deleted from my ‘call upon me’ list, that he apologizes for not getting back to me, but he just got in from his pre-op for cancer surgery!   How much more must I learn before I learn that the Father only puts on me what He knows I can handle. In other words, my Heavenly Father has faith and trust in me so much that He enjoins me on this earth to provide comfort and encouragement to His people! What an awesome responsibility! Anything more is of my doings. That means, I may be losing sight of my purpose in life.   He put me here with purpose! Dear Father Above, may I not ever let you down!

When I take control of my life (my self), am I possibly promoting myself to be a bit more righteous and a lot less humble? That too I heard this week! I was, not being singled out or put upon or lectured to, but tasting my own words: Strive for Righteousness;  Salvation only comes from YHVH! Please, YHVH, forgive me for my transgressions and please do not give me more than I can handle or less than what I need. I thank you so very much for permitting me to speak with and listen to all the peoples You have sent my way. Without them, I know deep in my heart, I would not have heard You.

These past couple of weeks, I have learned not to become so caught up in what I may think is doing the Father’s business. I am reminded to become caught up in living the Father’s Torah. There must be more than meets the eye, for He sure is supersizing His boot camp so we can all be prepared! (Ex 16:9-12)

Thank you all for your tolerance. You all teach me so much!

Shalom and Shalom with love and like!

Pinchas a/k/a Frankly Speaking